i hate that im sensitive and jealous and stupid and ugly and annoying
I suppose it’s a comfort, perhaps a sense of self-control, doing worse damage to yourself than the world will ever dare inflict.
I have a really sweet, caring boyfriend who always takes such good care of me. I’m a princess who crys about everything, but he always treats me like gold, and puts up with my tantrums. He’s so patient with me and so loving. He’s so special, and not only because he deals with my attitude, but because he’s such a perfect prince. I love him dearly.
Becoming different from someone is really hard, because before you know it a huge distance has grown between the two of you. Things are the same in some ways, but in other ways they’re so different. There’s always an underline tension. Sometimes conversation is really good, but other times there’s awkward silences that feel like they go on forever. You feel really happy sometimes, but than other times you just want to walk away.
The most annoying part is that it’s not something you can just “fix”. If two people have changed, they’ve changed for good. You can’t just “go back”. Things will never be the “same” again.